Monday, June 25, 2012

I Remember

I remember when he was a babe in my arms
            And the way his hair smelled.
I remember when he followed me from room to room
And planted wet kisses on my cheeks.
I remember when he learned to crawl, walk, and finally run.
These memories I hold deep in my heart.

I remember when he ate the fish from our aquarium.
I remember when at three-years-old, he would write,
            “God loves me and I love God.”
I remember when he stood on a church pew and flew Buzz Lightyear during a prayer and shouted,
            “To infinity and beyond.”
These memories bring me peace and laughter.

I remember when he road his bike off a cliff.
I remember when he moved his trampoline over to the pool
            And jumped from it into his pool.
I remember when he and his dad made a skateboard ramp that was too high
            And he seemed to take off for space the first time he used it.
These memories make me aware that God watches our children.

I remember his growing up and all the delight he brought into our lives.
My memories are blessed, and good, and filled with joy.

But now life is creating a new memory.
Today, another mom is making a memory.
Tomorrow, she will be able to say that she remembers
            Events in her son’s life that she thought were lost to her.
These new memories serve to make me more fully aware of my great God
            And how He loves and comforts the broken hearts of mothers.


Kearsmom said...

You have given this mother the most priceless of gifts. God put you in this moment because He knew that you could understand what she needed, in ways that no one but you could understand. And He has you in his arms, He hasn't forgotten, and He will bring Himself glory through your life.

Debbie B said...

Jeannie, thank you for your kind words, friendship, and love.

Anonymous said...

Dear Debbie: I have really enjoyed reading your blog online because not only is it one of the best blogs out there, it also lets others get to know you and hear more about your relationship with God. Like many others I originally saw you on television when your two older children were taken. It always pained me because not only did you remind me so much of my own mother but you also were able to "hold it together." I think your strong relationship with God has allowed you to forgive. My relationship with God unfortunately is not as close as yours, but I will keep reading because I think maybe I can learn from you. I will comment again later when possible. Sincerely, Matt Roberts, Dallas Texas.

Deborah said...

I was there the day he ate the goldfish :) We laughed, because it was too late to do otherwise.
How I love you. Your capacity to love is enormous. You are heroic in your faith and in your daily walk. I am praying for you, for your heart, for the way you minister to so many without even knowing it.

Debbie B said...

Deborah, you were there for much of Paul's beginnings with our family. We share many memories of our children. God is so good.

Debbie B said...

Dear Matt,

Your words humble me. I will add you to my prayers.

Be blessed,

Graham said...

I am so happy Paul has been able to meet his other family. In sowing him into his own "found" family, it gives me hope that it will bring forth the fruit of your own "found" children realizing what a loving, wonderful family they have. You have written a beautiful testament of your love for Paul and your faith in your God!